Looking back over my journey with Christ, there’s a point where it was liberating and refreshing when I realized that I can give my whole life to God and He can take control of everything.
Surely, if we take a look, He is in control of everything. After all, He is the one who created everything under the sun. It is when my small mind realized that I do not have to fret nor do I have to worry when I can offer my whole life to Him.
I think it is by our nature to preserve ourselves. Maybe protect our things and our body.
What got me started to think this way is through having no money to fix my teeth from a bike accident a few years ago. Or the realization that the liver transplant and after all the binge drinking, I still, by His Grace, can do an Ironman and be healthy.
It’s also at this point where I had a desire to follow Him. Not just simply follow but to willing to follow Him at all cost. In a way, it might feel limiting. I had build up my ‘asset‘, my experience, my education, my career, my stuff….and Jesus in many cases called His Disciples to give it up and follow Him.
In a way, this is the biggest test or experiment of one’s life. This decision or this desire to follow ain’t just a head knowledge. It is reflected from one’s life and one’s action.
Among reading many missionaries and some intimate experience with the Holy One, I ask myself this question…..what does it mean to follow Christ?
I never really talk about it to many Christian brothers and sisters. Most of us are interested in many things. Giving up stuff is rarely one of them.
I didn’t think much about it…until I read today’s devotion from My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers.
The devotion is about the desire to follow Christ and surrendering everything to Him…
If you will give God your right to yourself, He will make a holy experiment out of you— and His experiments always succeed.
It is true. It is He who is in charge. He who wields the experiment.
Last night, I was reading Galatians again and I noticed this writing from Paul in Chapter 1:13-16…
For you have heard of my previous way of life in Judaism, how intensely I persecuted the church of God and tried to destroy it. I was advancing in Judaism beyond many of my own age among my people and was extremely zealous for the traditions of my fathers. But when God, who set me apart from my mother’s womb and called me by his grace, was pleased to reveal his Son in me so that I might preach him among the Gentiles, my immediate response was not to consult any human being
I noticed how from Paul’s view, at least in this epistle, his conversion is all God at work.
In verse 13, he wrote…
For you have heard of my previous way of life in Judaism, how intensely I persecuted the church of God and tried to destroy it. I was advancing in Judaism beyond many of my own age among my people and was extremely zealous for the traditions of my fathers.
Paul was persecuting the church. Paul tried to destroy it. Paul was religious in Judaism. Paul was zealous. It was all Paul’s actions.
Then in verse 14-16, we see a transition of who is at work…
But when God, who set me apart from my mother’s womb and called me by his grace, was pleased to reveal his Son in me so that I might preach him among the Gentiles, my immediate response was not to consult any human being
Now it was God who set Paul part. God who called Paul by His Grace. God who revealed His Son to Paul. God who gave Paul the ministry preach to the Gentiles. Now it is all God!
And so here I stand. All before Him. He leads. He guides. He supplies. He reigns.
With that in mind, I can fully lean on Him and be part of this Holy Experiment. The experiment of my own life and see how Good He truly is.
There is no fear for lack of things because He is the one who provides.
There is no need to worry of the future because He is the one who plans and acts.
There is no concern to follow to today’s world of pattern to get more, obtain more, accumulate more because He is the Good Shepherd.
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.