There’s a time when it must walk among the branches, looking over the height, over its surrounding. It must flap its wings. For a moment thinking whether they will hold itself in the air. There might be a sense of fear, excitement and above all, unknown.
How will flight taste like?
I am not sure if birds think as human do. Maybe it is part of their gene and wiring. When it reaches a certain point, the bird must fly. That’s what it is created for.
Last night I was listening to a sermon which struck me in the deepest way. Part of the sermon, the speaker said that the more immature you are, the bigger the sign you need and seek. After a while, God will stop answering your prayers and stop leading. Because you will know God and His Will so closely that you will know what His Will is.
I can recall for the past few months, I hear very little from the Lord. A lot of praying, seeking (and sometimes yelling) from my end. But He’s been silent.
It is almost as if the Lord is telling me, ‘Cliff, you know My Ways and you know my Will. You have done enough Bible study and seen me at work. Now the ball is in your court, go do my Work.’
And the immature me continue to stay in the nest. Seeking relentlessly for a sign and confirmation. Probably afraid to leave. Afraid to go. Afraid to do. Continue to ask, ‘what should I do? Give me a sign.’
Coming to Singapore. Being a missionary with OMF in the International Headquarters (IHQ). Giving up everything. Being in a relationship.
There are many changes in my life. As much as I rather stop and stay still to seek comfort, 2012 will be a continue of seeking His Faith as my life continue to change. And now, instead of trying to hang on to the past, the comfort of my old self, the desire to stay in the nest, it is time to move on, a new season has already come.
When I was a child, I spoke like a child. I thought like a child. I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up my childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
A sign of Christian maturity is not waiting for God to tell us what to do. It is not merely seeing signs and visions. It is in knowing God so intimately and His characters so well that our desire and His Will aligns, our body becoming the instrument of God. Through us, feeble bodies and broken souls, bring fourth the Kingdom of God.
Thy Kingdom come. Thy Will be dome. On earth as it is in heaven.
